April 24, 2010 @ 11:46 AM
I feel weird. And random. And emo. And depressed. Suddenly feel as though i've lost my direction in life. I mean, what's the point? I don't make any sense lately. Even to myself. Mood swings are like the norm. This never happened last year before PSLE or anything. And it's probably not because of stress. The stress isn't really THAT BAD. No. Something else. Sigh. Lemons. What's the point! There's totally no point is there?
Yes, there's hope in life. The hope may give you happiness for some time, or even permanently. But then when you slow down, escape from the reality of the fast-paced life all of us have nowadays, you'll find that the sadness, the pain, the grief you've experienced have never truely left us. Have you had bad dreams that seem oddly familiar? Have you ever been suddenly overwhelmed by sadness? They're probably shadows of the pain, cropping up from time to haunt each and every one of us. Look back, and find that, apart from in your earliest childhood, memories of pain will outnumber those of joy. It is always the painful memories that will stay with us all our lives, not those of joy. Joy fades quickly, like the smoke produced by a burning flame. Pain is like the wax stains on the table, hard to scrape off. Even if it is eventually scraped off, the shadow, the burn marks, will forever be with us. So that's life. Perhaps it is indeed true that people rejoice at the birth of a child because that child will be another person to share the burden with. Perhaps babies cry when they are born because they already know, subconsciously, of the pain filled life in front of them.
~Mich <3
"我的天空今天有点灰 我的心是个落叶的季节 我不知道如何度过今夜 所有的灯早已经全都熄灭"
