I feel so busy. Like I constantly have no time to just sit back and relax for a while, like I always have stuff to do. Which is true really, but I feel so content doing them. I'm actually accomplishing things that'll help my team instead of just slacking around and doing nothing. This feeling's totally awesome. Now I know why I wanted to be more busy last week(: it's always good to have something meaningful to keep you occupied instead of how meaningless the hols usually are to me. Idk, last year I could just stay at home and play com all day, but now I'm simply not content with just doing that. Everything seems so pointless. Fun, yes, but there's no meaning to it, and I get bored of it after a while. But now I feel soso happy(:
I really think passion is the drive for everything for me at least. If I don't like to do something or can't find meaning in something, such as certain school subjects, I just hate is completely and won't put in much effort at all even if I know that I really need to. But for stuff that I really care about, like what I'm doing now (OM!), even doing work seems super fun which is probably true and being a busy bee actually makes me incredibly happy but when doing PTs and AAs I generally have the totally procrastinating feeling. Next step: learning to find meaning in things that I currently find meaningless but are absolutely necessary in my life!
