I was super irritated just now because of some unknown reason and no one was at home. It's been happening alot lately somehow :O so I just offed the computer and got my phone and went to lie down on my bed and started playing Hebe's album- not too loud, so that it was more of background music. But omygosh, it felt so good and totally calmed me down until I was thinking of nothing, concentrating on nothing except for the music. I was barely even aware of myself, of my surroundings. It really felt super good then, like I was totally completely at harmony with the whole world, all my worries and hopes and everything that was weighing on my heart simply- disappeared somehow. It was the best feeling in the world, to think and feel nothing, to be at absolute ease and at peace with everything, like everyone in the world does not exist and the whole world consisted of nothing but me, and Hebe's songs. I can't even remember the last time I felt that way, and now I realise- I really should do this more often, just put down everything I'm worrying about for a while, listen to music as though the world doesn't exist. Put the busy life behind me, no academics, no OM, no Guides, no Tarbet, no House- nothing. Just absolute complete peace. It really is the best method for me to just escape from the worries and burdens in my life for a while. I think I rather like being alone.
