I'm stressed stressed stressed so super stressed D: damn damn damn damn how how how how how help how now brown cow! omg i'm so incoherent and tired. idk lah i think i'm just not used to this sort of stress and the feeling of having too much to do too little time i'm never gonna sleep at night help how. yknow that sort. does that even make sense. i don't think so. i hate feeling like this i need to stop myself from emoing NOW. must... not... emo... comeon. but i'm just incredibly tired i don't know how i'm going to survive this year but i know i will. somehow. but right now i'm so exhausted i just want to sleep but i can't sleep. i feel like giving up. i can't even let myself close my eyes for more than a few seconds else i'll just zonk out. i wanna escape reality. i miss the feeling of having time to spare to talk to people about things other than work work work. i miss those long convos with phine both of us are so busy now. i want another HTHT with my OM team in the darkness it feel so good. i want another of those long random heartwarming talks with minyan in school or anywhere. i miss the msn convos i used to have with louisa. idk i miss all the time i used to have to do and think about things other than what's work related, i miss having some space in my mind for myself alone and no one else. omg i'm so sleepy and tired kay i'm outta here bye.
keep holding on, cos' you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through. just stay strong, cos' you know i'm here for you i'm here for you~
so far away, i wish you were here, before it's too late these could all disappear. when the doors close, and it seems like the end, with you by my side i will fight and defend.
