Have absolutely no idea whether to go for houseprac or OM spon training on Saturday, intensely conflicted again. But thing is that I really really don't want to miss housepracs. They're so important to me, those three (plus one) hours on Saturdays, and there're only four more left. I think I'm relying on them more than ever, love them so much. Love the sense of family that I get when I'm at housepracs, and the refreshing and fulfilling feeling, and I think houseprac is the only, only time when I actually am confident of myself, am sure of everything, and don't constantly doubt myself and think I'm not good enough. I don't know why, but housepracs are practically what I'm living for nowadays, life is so crazy and hard and just those few hours at the end of every week is just amazing, how they can cheer me up and let me move on again. I really don't want to miss houseprac. It's so irrational, but I don't care.
