Houseprac 2~
February 12, 2011 @ 10:17 PM
So today was houseprac 2 2011(: it was so completely amazing. I really don't know where to begin.
Firstly, I think it's really weird to go to houseprac as a housecomm instead of a sec1. well not weird, but it just feels completely different. I don't know which one I prefer. Last year, when I was sec1 (this sounds weird to myself), it was all so magical and so cool, the suspense of what we're going to do, what cool cheer we're going to learn, it was so amazing and fun. Now it's awesome to know the plan, and know that you can be one of those getting the sec1s to love Tarbet. Feels especially good to teach cheers, then watch the sec1s cheering them at the amphi with all the other houses watching, it feels so affirming to see them doing what you've been teaching them. I wonder if cheer squad felt this way last year, and the capts, and everyone else. And I wonder if that's why they love enthu sec1s so much, cos I definitely do now. I feel so inspired by the sec1s.
And I'm really proud of myself, think I did well today for my first time as a housecommer. I admit I was feeling pretty nervous in the morning before the sec1s started arriving. Like what if I don't know what to do? And a lot of stuff. But I think everything just pretty much came naturally after that, like it was so simple, so obvious what to do, teaching cheers and whatever. The house spirit just totally overwhelmed me again, like it did last year, but I think it's even better now cos I think I'm better at letting go of my fears and insecurities and just doing what I want to do. It was so amazing. I think when you truely care about something, all your fears and everything just don't matter anymore, the courage comes true, not without insecurities, but the knowledge that something is more important than that, is above that, beyond that. Feels so good to know that.
The more I look at the capts do stuff for house, the more I realise I can never be as good as them O: Priya says I'm too hard on myself, but I think it's true. And the whole everyone expecting me to be capt thing is freaking me out.
Also, what is a prisioner's favourite punctuation mark?
The fullstop, because it marks the end of his sentence.
纸飞机的折法 藏在回忆里陪我长大
纸飞机快飞吧 快乐方法并不复杂
不管未来怎样多变化 保留这牵挂
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