June 20, 2011 @ 7:19 PM
The only line that has been in all our scripts ever since right from the beginning: Behold! I am the mighty Mulan, prepare to meet your maker, you enemies of our beloved emperor!
Everything else has changed. So much, in such a short space of time.
Been filing all my OM things- notes, brainstorming, research etc, and everything's flooding back to me- all the memories. Individual meetings. The intense joy and frustration. Random catch phrases from a few months back. Our utter confidence... or the lack of it. OM has been one of the best things this year, I'm really grateful for it. There's just too much, too much to express in words what I want to say right now about OM. It's so incredibly tempting to join next year- the urge is stronger than ever, but I
cannot. As much as it's been an incredible and amazing journey, I can't forget all the guilt when I let one person or another down, the intense frustration when I had to miss housepracs, sportsfest, AA, the times when I was just so incredibly sick of the team and making things. I can't. I just can't. But there're also all those times we stayed late together, laughed together, went crazy together, gossiped together, watched Disney in hotel rooms together, and just worked quietly together in that comraderie. The satisfaction after a productive day. The joy of the moment when we beat ACS at nats. The disappointment when we didn't get top 6, and the relief soon after when we realised we got ninth, nevertheless that slight tinge of regret, but still contentment and happiness knowing that we've put in so much. As I said in a blog post after nationals, the good things don't replace or neutralize the bad ones in my memory (and there're definitely a lot of both), but they make up for them, they (and everything I've learnt in the past few months) are what make this whole thing worth it <3
OM I miss you so much right now.
