July 26, 2011 @ 7:07 PM
striping today... i don't know what to say i really don't know what to say.
so basically, liyin's QM, our patrol got split up, cheryl the lucky person is still in mynah, kim's in dove, i got transferred to 02 sunflower (PS).
i just realised how amazingly
calm that sentence above sounded which is just strange. mixed feelings, really... i'm going to miss mynah a lot, this patrol has meant so much to me over the past 2 years it's amazing, and now i don't belong there anymore and it feels very very very strange. liyin i'll miss you so much ): though maybe next year we'll get to work together as vicecapts instead! but sunflower just won't be the same- i have no doubt it'll be amazing, but mynah will always be my first patrol. my patrol emblem still says mynah, my election writeup says mynah, everywhere everything says mynah. i can't get used to falling in right at the back of the patrol and the patrol that is right in the middle of rgguides. i suppose i expected to get transferred (either me or liyin) but it doesn't make it any easier or the impact softer. i'll get used to it though, eventually (: i guess for now it just seems strange.
there's so much i'm thinking now thoughts are flooding my mind and i can't seem to organise them to make them coherent enough to understand.
mynah mynah i'll really really miss you this patrol is amazing and wonderful. but sunflower 02 is gonna be good :D it will be good oh yes it will. i can't say i'm happy to be transferred (hello i can scarcely believe it) but i'll do my best as PS (even though i really think i don't deserve it, i feel horribly inadequate now). dang so many thoughts i cannot write everything out.
i love our batch what would i do without you smurfs/13atch.
but it felt so strange, today, to see our batch being transferred, to see us as qts and ps and generally just stepping up. i really cannot imagine being sec3, it seems so damn faraway even though sec2 is ending in one and a half terms i have to admit i still feel sec1.
and b11atch is leaving WHY. they were such an amazing amazing batch, so alike yet so different and so funny and high and incredibly good at jump shots. they were sec3 when we came in and now we're going to be sec3 and they're leaving and it's so crazy, it feels so wrong. going to miss them so much.
it still feels weird knowing that our batch is stepping up, it feels even weirder to know that i'm not in mynah anymore, but life goes on and it'll be okay <3
and thank you everyone who's talked to me today, who's wrote me notes, it makes everything easier, yknow? (:
this year's striping really hit me very hard- being separated from liyin, b11atch leaving, our batch stepping up. to be honest i don't understand why so many people have to be transferred. but it's true isn't it, ultimately we're all still one rgguides family, we'll always be a family no matter what, no matter what patrol or batch or position we're in. <3 <3
