i really don't like all this academic stress on us. it really stresses me out and is extremely discouraging- there you are trying to cope with all that work streaming in and the teachers are all like 'why haven't you been doing well' and you're just sitting there feeling like screaming at the teacher/school i'm already trying will you please leave me alone! these two days have been strangely negative and it's scaring me. there'll always be those days when everything comes back to me quite suddenly and hitting me straight in the face but now really isn't the right time. true, there will never be any right time, but times are crazy and i need as much optimism as possible.
i don't even know what to do anymore. can't wait for all this to be over. ahh.
