September 14, 2011 @ 10:22 PM
...phew finally get to blog again. yesterday was super uncomfortable, and it can't be good how much i rely on my blog.
it's 3 days into term 4, and i'm already incredibly sleepy, not a good thing. need to sleep earlier, but i just can't seem to fall asleep somehow- have too much on my mind.
okay so yesterday- guides was fun, oh how i love sawing wood, reminds me of the good ol' structure building days (: and chopping was tiring as usual, but oh. patrol corner was hilarious rhe-ann the demented bat! and to my awesome csi group, if you're reading this: we RE-ENACTED THE BAT SAVING SCENE. amazing or what.
CLE was good i guess, i think ms lau's pretty much amazing- she's not the best teacher ever, sure. but her sincerity and her passion amazes me (i love sincere people), and i think she's right in what she says- it's true, we really are one world, why is it that some are wasting food while others are starving. aren't we all people? and it's true that SL should not be about the hours, hours should not be about the LEAP points- it's essentially the desire to give back to the society because we have the ability to, becaus we had the good fortune to be born as who we are, and that is something to be thankful for.
i want to do YFC next year (: helping people gives me a certain sense of fulfillment and joy knowing that you made a difference
(and yes i am fully aware of how cliche the above sounds.)
today- !nk was really fun (: shannon phuah you are so strange, never squashing with you on one chair again. gotta love your dino bag though live large! (although how anyone can mistake the head for the tail...) the random poem i wrote was really strange, i have no idea WHY i decided to write something on volcanoes (geog is messing with my mind) but words always make me happy :D strangely deliriously happy.
and camwhoring in OM and the famous amos ms leow gave us are really nice and her dogs are really adorable and life is good in general <3
but last night i felt so depressed and empty and without a purpose that it was really scary, i don't know what brought that on, that sudden violent inferiority complex, the incredibly 不服气 feeling (cannot think of the word i'm thinking of in english), all the bitterness and everything coming crashing down on me. i really hate my slytherin side sometimes.
