September 17, 2011 @ 12:36 PM
Hall assembly yesterday was good, in a way (: ms michelle is such a hilarious speaker (the male psyche? on/off switch!) (and of course we have the same name so :D) and this one thing hit me-
i am not a underachiever. my teachers are overexpectors and it just left me wondering how many of us always say "i'm going to fail" "i did super badly" but you actually got a 3.6? which is not a low gpa. i don't know- rg girls expect so much of ourselves, too much maybe? such that we expect to get a 4.0 gpa, and our sense of "failure" is 3.2- if getting a 3.2 gpa means you've failed, i don't know what it says about us anymore. are we really so bent on getting a
perfect gpa? but so what if we do, so what if we don't? i don't know why we're all so perfectionist about everything. we expect too much of ourselves, we expect too much of people around us, we expect too much of the
world (where is the love). what makes us happy? i don't think a perfect gpa can make us truly
happy and yet we care about it so much. maybe it's the social pressure, i guess- it's very 令人感到自卑 when people around you are flaunting their 3.6++ GPAs and you're just thinking
why is everyone so smart. but i don't understand why we expect so much of ourselves when it really doesn't matter, why force ourselves to be someone we're not just so that you can be society's definition of
successful?
