October 20, 2011 @ 10:18 PM
and here's the blog post about house camp + dinner afterwards (:
okay i've been trying to type out something for really long but aiya i really cannot do justice to it. it was so so amazing.
so it started right after morning assembly, pau coming up to me and going "hi mich! i need to tell you something- you're subcomm head for next year" and my first thought was honestly just
wow. i admit i'd hoped for it, kind of, but i never really expected to be IC. my mind just literally exploded with too many thoughts in those few minutes i guess (x and then spent the rest of the school day anticipating camp (between watching drama, and getting very disappointed with my marks)
...and of course, it was good. i won't go into details (or i'll have 10 page long essay) but it completely re-ignited my passion for house. it was exactly what i needed i guess, after struggling with myself for so long and now i don't think it matters any more that i didn't get vicecapt because it's really not the position, it's the spirit and the service. i don't know why it took me so long to get over that but i'm so thankful for the camp.
and beyond that (though it was a huge relief to know that it doesn't matter anymore and if i tell myself otherwise... it's some twisted manifestation of arrogance or something similar) it was incredible, the feeling was incredible as was the reassurance that my passion has not disappeared, it's still there and maybe even stronger than before. i realised that i really needn't be so worried about all that because if you truly love something, it will always be there, passion doesn't just fade somehow.
(this is not working i still cannot phrase this properly ahhh)
house is amazing. the conviction i feel when it comes to house is amazing. i don't know how or why this happened but i'm glad it did, and housecomm is such a huge part of my identity now that i cannot imagine myself without housecomm. grateful for this opportunity.
we are more than we are; we are one
and then just before we ended the individual house segment pau was talking again about how we always have so many plans but somehow they fall through in the end and i was thinking-
i don't want that to happen. i don't know about other subcomms but i'm determined to do the best i can in cheer and whatever i'm involved in because house means that much to me and- i know house has a lot to improve on, i also know that we have the potential. call me idealistic or whatever but i think we can, step by step. i know people don't really care about house right now, and it's not going to be easy to change that and we're not going to do it in the next 2 years but... slow and steady wins the race, right? (TARBET TURTLE OMG HAHA)
and of course, camp was incredibly HIGH. (i'm tall yeah!!) love my subcomm to pieces, i really do. le lamp ftw! we ignite the passion yeah (: maaaan okay i cannot get over our awesomeness.
okay let's say that i don't think i did that well this year, definitely not as well as i could have and i promise, next year will be better.
this is my commitment; to live up to the spirit that is in me.
