Rawr haven't been blogging- everytime I turn on my iPad intending to blog I get distracted by various apps and whatsnot. Technology is so scarily addictive.
Anyway I've been wondering- why is it that this year I've been seeing so much less of the enthusiasm in our batch, all of the 400 of us than last year? I remember when everyone was enthu- that wouldn't have lasted, obviously. But why is it that somehow this year the manifestations of enthusiasm have somehow decreased so much- everyone has become so strangely unenthu about Things and it's actually somewhat scary to see this happening all around, even with myself. Somehow I've become more reluctant to show my enthusiasm? I keep getting doubts about what I'm doing and what people will think of it and everything and it's been preventing me from being the best I can be in many situations yet I feel somewhat...powerless? to stop this from happening. I know people will attribute it to a natural part of life, perhaps it's just part of growing up and understanding what it means to be human, but if that is so- 我真的不想长大.
