Today=awkward. incredibly awkward. 310 is currently in this awkward what-is-going-on state where people like us want to get to know others better but daren't introduce ourselves and others don't even want to and it's just weird. first day of school and i miss 203 so damn much already- meeting up at our old class table and sharing stories of our new teachers is just another reminder that it'll never be that way again.
and house talk... house talk. well let's just say that it was okay-ish, but the feeling of standing up there on stage not really knowing what to say to try and get everyone to wake up was so strange. i'm really no good at crowds- have never liked crowds myself, and i have no idea how to handle myself in front of a crowd. i'm not sure how people like ____ seem to do it so effortlessly but i can't. ): it's somewhat... i don't know la. cheering is fine, but handling a crowd is really just... argh argh argh it was so awkward and weird and i suppose it's kind of strange for me of all people to be no good at this sort of things and this should probably be something a cheer squad ic should be able to do. and- having ayemon beside me is scary and reassuring at the same time because she is so pro and forever seems in control but it's kinda /: because i feel hopelessly inadequate standing beside her.
