May 26, 2012 @ 12:32 AM
sportsfest today (: (: was so amazing. my throat feels absolutely terrible right now but it's okay <3 i realise there is no place in rg where i can let loose as much as in house and tarbet housecomm'12 because the level of trust and comfortableness with that group of people is beyond anything i've found with such a big group of people so far.
today before the results were announced we were freaking out so badly because the scores were really close and all and- yknow that feeling when you're so scared of what you're going to hear you literally just stop breathing? when they announced that buckle was third and waddle was second housecomm was just going 'yesssss' and gathering in this tight circle anticipating the results and the suspense was crazy. and of course- they just had to make us waaaait for it and all of us had some strange half pained half excited expression and when they announced that WE WON the circle just somehow broke up spontaneously and everyone started jumping around cheering and hugging each other and nothing else mattered except that we won, Tarbet won. THAT MOMENT was the best thing this term, the best way to end this term, with such an amazing group of people with such amazing news. results don't quantify everything, i know that, but everyone wants to be recognised for their effort huh (: such a great great moment i don't even know how to describe the elation i felt at that time.
I HAVE A REALLY COOL TARBET TANLINE NOW.
what would i do without tarbet really haha cannot even imagine my rgs life without housecomm. (: so many tims this term i've gotten so damn frustrated over house stuff especially when there were a lot of other things to juggle at the same time and wanted to scream at people and just throw it all aside but in the end it's the love and passion that make everything worthwhile. house events always make me really exhausted but there's nothing that reaffirms that we should
always do things in love more than house. the system is really achievement based, sure, but there is so much more to it than just results. house is such a beautiful reminder of this over and over again :D
one moment that hit me quite hard today was the elation of the cheerleaders when we offered them the trophy to take a photo with- perhaps they were quite disappointed, but i thought they were amazing and whether we win or not the tarbet cheerleaders are an amazing bunch. i guess it made them feel that although we didn't win the cheerleading segment, they do matter and they did contribute and they were so wonderful. forget what the system tries to tell us, it's the journey and not just the results that matter the most in the end.
after housecomm lunch at fish and co i was just so tired and all i wanted to do was go home and flop onto the bed and just sleeeeeep for hours and hours. term 2 has been so tiring in so many ways but it was completely worth it. really drained now, need to give myself a break!
有时候你就是会觉得很累，然后怎样。可是你累的时候啊，你沮丧的时候呢，就想想你当初为什么会读这个科系，是当初不小心写错了吗，还是因为你真的很爱这个科系。你为什么会做这个工作呢，是因为你真的很热爱这个工作吗？就会有很多烦琐的事情，可是你要记得你的初衷，然后就找寻到那个快乐，我觉得就会比较热烈。或者是除去抽一根烟，或者是听一首很好听的歌，或是打电话给你一个最爱的人。在你沮丧的时候你就想想，你不知道往哪走的时候你就想想看你是从哪来，或是你为什么会现在做这些事情。然后就带着爱，带着爱你就会很顺利。
