May 26, 2013 @ 10:58 PM
One more week.
Also I am so frustrated lately by how people are refusing to understand that I need time alone, that people insist on dragging me everywhere all the time and it's so exhausting to not have that time to recharge. the moments alone nowadays are the best, when i'm not obligated to be doing something (even those when i'm consciously ignoring my obligations, which should not be happening but) they're so hard to come by, and i'm not sure why people keep insisting on dragging me everywhere, i'm not sure why i keep letting people drag me everywhere when i know i need this time alone.
http://www.ted.com/talks/susan_cain_the_power_of_introverts.html
http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,2105432-1,00.html
Some time ago I realised we only have two months until we step down from Guides (not even that much, I think) and it's such a scary thing. We have-- less than 8 sessions left together, less than 24 hours, and now every session (no matter how mundane the things we are doing, PUNK PICKING) is something wonderful, something to be treasured. and why couldn't it have been this way before? It's sad, perhaps, that the year I realise how just how much I love this CCA/I love this batch is the year that we step down and
there is so little time to appreciate people and things. And right now amidst everything going on Guides sessions have been throw into sharper focus because there are so few of them left. At guides last week someone (not sure who) remarked to me "Why are you missing Guides so much nowadays" and this is something that has been tearing me apart, how YFC and house and other things keep pulling me away from Guides even though this is
the thing I want to treasure most in these last two months. This is just something I desperately want to hold on to despite the growing disconnect with regard to Guides events (open house, enrollment tomorrow even) because we're stepping down so soon and there isn't much more 13atch can do, but I love Guides so much, I love the batch, I love the spirit, I love our juniors. Increasingly this has been the thing that I hold on to amidst the chaos and Guides has been my rock in so many ways, I don't want to leave this place.
